Unfulfilled Bailing plans
(18/10/25; 2:42 am) I had bailing plans, but they never did make it to my diary. And when I thought they'd finally do, something interrupted sneakily and I completely forgot. It wasn't that I couldn't bring the plans to be, It was more like I wouldn't bring them to be. For when I made those plans, a teeny tiny dot in me knew they might not be but I focused solely on what I hoped would be instead. Maybe it was the anger of the moment, but I sure wasn't one to take decisions because of anger. It was more for the fun of it - The fun of doing something no one expects of me; The fun of rebelling at what a lot of people consider important; The fun in having a sense of punishment for a certain lacked achievement. However, I couldn't bring myself to this fun so another fun came instead. It started with my girls - The fun of having to spend the last school moment with them. Then on God - The fun of being grateful even if all didn't go as planned. Then it went on to...